When it rains it pours

So that last couple of days have been challenging. I wish I could say that it's because of my frustration of the poverty all around me or something equally as worthy but sadly it's not. Not that those things don't still make me want to cry and get angry, cause they do but they haven't been what's consuming my thoughts lately. 

My problems have come because i do not know a good positive and healthy way to go about confrontation, so i let things build up until they explode. Don't worry i haven't exploded yet but I've wanted to and it's only the grace of God that i haven't. Things here in India are good, but everyday i wake up and feel like God is calling me to do something, and the missionary i am working with here has another idea of how things are going to happen and i don't know how to tell him that i disagree or have another opinion. So because i haven't been listening to God He is constantly plaguing my thoughts, and i feel guilty and annoyed with those around me because i feel like they should be hearing what I'm hearing. As you can see it's a fine mess i have made for myself and i know how to get out of it, but every time i go to broach the subject my pride gets in the way and i don't. Know you may be wondering what my pride has to do with anything but see i don't want them to tell me I'm wrong, or that I'm not hearing God correctly, so i haven't. 

Okay so this is sounding a little bit whinny and i will stop now, but pray that God would stomp on my pride and that i would humble myself so that God's will is done and not mine. 

On perhaps a lighter note what i have been doing in the day to day hasn't been very exciting. we haven't been able to go to the orphanage for the last two days because it is extremely expensive to go everyday, but in the long run that has been a blessing in disguise because we have been able to do an extensive cleaning of the house and we have had time for several repair men to come to the house and try to fix our power which always seems to be breaking. 

This does not mean that we have stayed in totally though we have gone to the local market on both days, to buy groceries and stop at this amazing little coffee shop. The market is always a interesting place to go because it's just all so different, you have this amazing coffee shop that is nicer then many of the ones in Calgary and then you walk out and there are beggar children asking you for money. It's an experience to say that least.

Happy Day Everyone it rained yesterday and even though when it storms it causes major problems because it just reeks havoc with our power it was great!! It like down pours for the 20 min intervals and then stops, but it also cools everything down. It was like a comfortable 30 during the day yesterday!! OH how i love the rain. 

Anyways that's all for now, i hope that all of you who are or were at YC this weekend had a amazing time and those of you who aren't i hope you also had a good weekend. 

Love!!