Satan will not triumph

So the countdown is on, i leave in like 30 hours!!! It's crazy so much has been going on in the last couple of weeks.

Just to give you a brief overview, i have almost been in a panick over not having enough money to survive on in India- let alone enough money to cover my flights (i am still short of money to live off while i am there, but more about that to follow). The stress of this alone has been enough to keep me up all night again, i know i should have just followed my own advice and not worried about it. Because if it is God's will he will provide, and He has and will, but i stressed about this anyways. So this on its own was enough to cause me great worry but sadly satan has decided that he doesn't want me in india and he attacked me in new ways that greatly hurt me. He used the people closest to me, like my mom and my friends. These people told me lies that could have only come from the evil one, but instead of being a smart daughter of the king, i listened to too much of what they were saying, i started to doubt the calling i heard from God. I was doubting everything; my life, my relationship with Christ, and i was examining everything. I seriously debated this week just giving in and canceling my flight and not going, thankfully God sent me someone wonderful and the filled me up and reminded me to stop being so selfish and realize it is not for me that i'm going. This is God's trip and i should remember that.
So i know this is all a little random and you may not have wanted to read it, but it was my life and i felt i necessary to be honest. Anyways, for good news, i'm working on my selfish attitude and i pray that God will break me and my will be taken so that God can use me there. Thank you all for reading and i will keep you updated.
Love

P.S. I still need to raise approx. $1000 so if you know anyone who would like to donate then give them my email and i will send them the necessary info on how to accomplish this. Thank you to those who have already given both in money and in prayers, both are highly valued and i appreciate them both more then you can know. 

Also sadly my digital camera is broken and i do not have the money to get it fixed at the moment so if anyone would like to loan me theirs till June 22 i would be very grateful because i would love to take pictures so that i can show everyone what they are supporting and all the amazing things India has to offer.  That's all for now, thanks again everyone :)