Camels and Peacocks...

Namaste

            Well Blog readers if your anything like me, your all currently super annoyed that I haven’t updated in a couple of days so here I go.

            This week again hasn’t been too eventful because sadly I was feeling a little under the weather, but good news I feel lots better now. Now I think that I will start this blog off with the things I have now seen during my travel’s around Delhi. The most exciting (probably because I saw it today) was a Peacock, everyone has been telling me they are everywhere around our neighborhood but I had never seen one before and was greatly annoyed, but God is good and I finally saw one!!! YAY!!! The next exciting animal was a Camel, he was just sort of chilling outside a store…I know it was a little bit weird. I also saw a horse that was actually a pony that looked like a donkey but had small ears; this was all very exciting because it was so confusing to look at. That is it for now, but stay tuned I’m sure I will have more to add to this list before I leave.

            So this week we have had one of Sixt1 missionaries staying here at the house she is leaving tomorrow so because she’s leaving she wanted a shopping buddy and seeing as how I love shopping and I’m the only one around to go I went. Shopping here is amazing and a dream come true. Seriously you just wander around this big area outside and you can get everything from groceries to regular western clothes to Indian wear to shoes and everything you can imagine AND it’s full of color!!! It’s a lot of work but so worth it just to experience it.

            Also I know many of you would be curious that I have now taken both a auto rickshaw and a bicycle rickshaw, you would think they would be more exciting but I’m glad we have a scooty to drive now, but I guess it’s still better then walking.

            Anyways that’s all I can think to write at the moment but I will write again soon, and I hope you all are enjoying the nice weather that I hear that you’re having,

Love 

When it rains it pours

So that last couple of days have been challenging. I wish I could say that it's because of my frustration of the poverty all around me or something equally as worthy but sadly it's not. Not that those things don't still make me want to cry and get angry, cause they do but they haven't been what's consuming my thoughts lately. 

My problems have come because i do not know a good positive and healthy way to go about confrontation, so i let things build up until they explode. Don't worry i haven't exploded yet but I've wanted to and it's only the grace of God that i haven't. Things here in India are good, but everyday i wake up and feel like God is calling me to do something, and the missionary i am working with here has another idea of how things are going to happen and i don't know how to tell him that i disagree or have another opinion. So because i haven't been listening to God He is constantly plaguing my thoughts, and i feel guilty and annoyed with those around me because i feel like they should be hearing what I'm hearing. As you can see it's a fine mess i have made for myself and i know how to get out of it, but every time i go to broach the subject my pride gets in the way and i don't. Know you may be wondering what my pride has to do with anything but see i don't want them to tell me I'm wrong, or that I'm not hearing God correctly, so i haven't. 

Okay so this is sounding a little bit whinny and i will stop now, but pray that God would stomp on my pride and that i would humble myself so that God's will is done and not mine. 

On perhaps a lighter note what i have been doing in the day to day hasn't been very exciting. we haven't been able to go to the orphanage for the last two days because it is extremely expensive to go everyday, but in the long run that has been a blessing in disguise because we have been able to do an extensive cleaning of the house and we have had time for several repair men to come to the house and try to fix our power which always seems to be breaking. 

This does not mean that we have stayed in totally though we have gone to the local market on both days, to buy groceries and stop at this amazing little coffee shop. The market is always a interesting place to go because it's just all so different, you have this amazing coffee shop that is nicer then many of the ones in Calgary and then you walk out and there are beggar children asking you for money. It's an experience to say that least.

Happy Day Everyone it rained yesterday and even though when it storms it causes major problems because it just reeks havoc with our power it was great!! It like down pours for the 20 min intervals and then stops, but it also cools everything down. It was like a comfortable 30 during the day yesterday!! OH how i love the rain. 

Anyways that's all for now, i hope that all of you who are or were at YC this weekend had a amazing time and those of you who aren't i hope you also had a good weekend. 

Love!!

Normal

Namaste, well I finished my first full week in India and I am happy to say that it feels like home. I no longer feel totally out of place and kind of lost, everything just seems normal now.

Normal for India is that you just have to accept that everything is loud all the time, there is nothing you can do about it, so I have accepted it (it sounds hard but it wasn’t). Next it always going to be hot there is nothing you can do about, so again I just accepted it. Food is spicy, but once you get passed that it’s amazing. There is an amazing amount of garbage and dirty water everywhere you look and go. Driving in the beginning was a little stressful since I only remember stopping at one red light and even then it was only for a second, now it’s just an enjoyable ride with air conditioning. The people are all so wonderfully different, their clothes are all different colors, styles, and everything about them is different from the person they are standing next too.

As you can read the new country appeal hasn’t worn off, but I’m glad it hasn’t. Right now everything is just wonderful and different.

I know that’s not really an update, and it probably doesn’t make sense to anyone but me, but I will write a better one tomorrow so relax.

Love

In a sauna with all my clothes on

Have you ever been in a sauna? Now if you have please remember how hot it is...not imagine if you were wearing all your clothes in it, that is how India feels like all the time, it never cools down. But that's okay cause it's amazing here, seriously i love it here already. It seems stupid now that i doubted that God wanted me here in the first place, I just have such a complete sense of peace that i can't even explain. 

My flight was very good, the only real rough times where when i was first leaving and seriously wanted to cry cause i was so unsure about coming, but that passed and God gave me peace. The other rough moment was when i was 5 hours into a 14 hour flight and was already bored, but that too passed and the flight went extremely well. 

My first two days here have been really great, the house i am staying in is really nice and we have air conditioning in one room, so i do have some place to retreat from the heat too. The first day was really chill, we just went to the market and hung out. The second day we went to the orphanage, and it's so amazing the kids are so adorable and so well behaved, i think i need to take notes for when i someday have children. 

I know this leaves a lot to be desired but i seriosuly don't know what else to say, but i thanks to all those who are supporting me financially and prayerfully, both are appreciated. Also i am still significantly short of what i need to be here so if you have a little extra or feel the lord leading you to give please email me and i will send you more information. Thanks everyone!!

I will update you again soon

Love

Satan will not triumph

So the countdown is on, i leave in like 30 hours!!! It's crazy so much has been going on in the last couple of weeks.

Just to give you a brief overview, i have almost been in a panick over not having enough money to survive on in India- let alone enough money to cover my flights (i am still short of money to live off while i am there, but more about that to follow). The stress of this alone has been enough to keep me up all night again, i know i should have just followed my own advice and not worried about it. Because if it is God's will he will provide, and He has and will, but i stressed about this anyways. So this on its own was enough to cause me great worry but sadly satan has decided that he doesn't want me in india and he attacked me in new ways that greatly hurt me. He used the people closest to me, like my mom and my friends. These people told me lies that could have only come from the evil one, but instead of being a smart daughter of the king, i listened to too much of what they were saying, i started to doubt the calling i heard from God. I was doubting everything; my life, my relationship with Christ, and i was examining everything. I seriously debated this week just giving in and canceling my flight and not going, thankfully God sent me someone wonderful and the filled me up and reminded me to stop being so selfish and realize it is not for me that i'm going. This is God's trip and i should remember that.
So i know this is all a little random and you may not have wanted to read it, but it was my life and i felt i necessary to be honest. Anyways, for good news, i'm working on my selfish attitude and i pray that God will break me and my will be taken so that God can use me there. Thank you all for reading and i will keep you updated.
Love

P.S. I still need to raise approx. $1000 so if you know anyone who would like to donate then give them my email and i will send them the necessary info on how to accomplish this. Thank you to those who have already given both in money and in prayers, both are highly valued and i appreciate them both more then you can know. 

Also sadly my digital camera is broken and i do not have the money to get it fixed at the moment so if anyone would like to loan me theirs till June 22 i would be very grateful because i would love to take pictures so that i can show everyone what they are supporting and all the amazing things India has to offer.  That's all for now, thanks again everyone :)